A couple parables and other things :)

Okay so here is a parable for you. We have 14 chickens here at home. All of them are different colors and sizes, and we use them for the eggs. Now, my dad is the primary caretaker of the chickens unless he is out of town and then I take command. If you could see how they act, you would be amazed. Whenever my dad drives up to the house after work in the evenings, they all come running into the yard where he is and they kinda follow him...watching him as he makes his way up the ramp and onto the porch. When he goes out to feed them, he calls to them and they come running no matter where they are! They follow him eagerly to the chicken complex (complex b/c there is a big house and small house with a yard). Anytime my dad is out of town, they also do the same thing when I come home and go out to feed them, they follow me even though I am really only second in command or just an extension of my dad. They forget about everything they are doing to follow us without question. This is so much like Heavenly Father and the Savior. Heavenly father is like my dad in that He is constantly calling to us (through the Holy Ghost) to follow him always. The Savior is like me (not as in I am anything close to him...but the role he plays) in that he is like an extension of Heavenly Father and also calls to us. Granted, Heavenly Father is never gone from us the way my dad might be away from the chickens for work, but you get the point.

Are we as eager to follow Heavenly Father and the Savior when they call us, as my chickens are to follow my dad and I when we call??

Another parable for you. If you have two normal magnets at home, take one in each hand and pass them by each other at varying lengths away. Notice that the closer you do this, the harder it gets to pull them away and keep them from joining together. Is this not so much like sin?? You can stare sin and temptation in the face from a distance and even tease it a little in your mind. The farther away you are from sin, the easier it is to keep from committing it. But as you get closer to the sin, it gets harder to stay away. Pretty soon you are pulled in and joined with that sin...and it becomes a part of your life. It takes a considerable amount of strength and control to keep the two magnets from joining when they are held close together and most of the time you end up at failing to keep them apart. Sin is just like this, the closer you are the harder it is to stay away from it and eventually, in many instances, you fail to keep from falling into that sin.


Okay so school...yea...school. I've never been the most academically advanced person. I could be if I could figure out the perfect way for me to study and stuff. I do have two As and one B. I'm not sure what my math class is though. I'm hoping that I will get a B in that class. I still love my classes and I have a presentation due tuesday along with all my paperwork from my last lesson. I also have to turn in the redo of my second algebra test since everyone in the class kinda did bad. This week is our last full week and then finals start the next week. WOOHOO!!!

I really do hate cold weather. I wish it was warm again. I have now seen New Moon three times!!! And I still love it! I signed up for a notifying email from Amazong for when it comes out on dvd...hahaha! Hmmm...other than that my life is still kinda boring. Work is going better than it was but it's beginning to become very frustrating once again since a certain coworker of mine won't get off his butt and do his job...which means me and the assistant manager have to do double and sometimes triple the work in order to keep things up and going.

Hope everyone had a great thanksgiving!

Realizations and Blessings

So I was thinking today and came across some realizations and blessings.

I realized that in about a year, my brother will be gone on his mission. This scares the mice out of me...I don't know what I will do.......WHAT WILL I DO?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Who will be my sidekick of mayhem? Who will play the yes, no battle with me to annoy my parents? Who will ride with me to school?! Who will I sing with in the car and dance with at dances? Geez it makes me cry thinking about it! My brother will be gone for two years...NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! That's such a scary thought for me...I'm not ready to let go of my brother. What will I do? How will I survive??? We're like peas in a pod...carrots in a cake...fish in a pond...broccoli in a bowl...oreos in milk. I think I have come to the conclusion that I will die without my brother. You think I worry about my friends and family now...you won't believe how horribly worried I will be when he leaves. What will I do?!


On to some blessings. I have had my car for 4 years and have put over 102, 800 miles on it as of today. And let me tell you something, the only thing that has had to be replaced is my EPS system. That's pretty awesome for all the driving I've done in my sweet little car!
My dad is the best dad in the world, no-really he is. Yesterday was his birthday...a day when he should have been pampered and such. I got up extra early to make him breakfast and yet all he said when I told him I was making him breakfast was "why don't you go back to sleep, you need the rest.". WOW! How selfless is that? He was more concerned about me getting sleep than he was about his own birthday. I love love love my dad. He is such an amazing example to me!
Rain is amazing. That's all that needs to be said about that.
Friends are the best thing since the invention of the wheel.
Butterflies are awesome.
Flowers make the world happy.
Rainbows are not filled with pots of gold, but they sure are pretty.

=)

So life has been interesting lately...I guess. At least, I see it as interesting. The mesquite tree next to our front gate split in half and fell over on the fence around the front yard...needless to say it pulled some of the front property line fence with it and snapped some wire. Saturday night when I got home from work I had to take down an entire fence by myself...wire and all. If you have never done this before, it can be kinda frustrating and painstakingly slow...but provides great exercise and fun times with barbed wire. I guess I should expect things to happen all at once, that tends to happen when you own land and have a lot of fence. There's always something that needs fixing. Like our front gate is falling off the post because someone from my parents' ward backed into it squishing it in half and causing the hinges to start breaking. It's always something for sure.

Friday night was the Institute Fall Festival and I only stayed for an hour because I had to pick up my dad. Needless to say, my costume sucked because it was last minute since I had no time during the week to prepare. This saturday is the party at john's place...and I'm excited to go even though I have no idea what I am going to be. We had stake conference this weekend and the topic of choice was good...however I get bored when all speakers do is share stories. I really enjoyed President Foote's words though!

I have a group project due tuesday for my SPED 4344 class. Thursday I am teaching my CI 4332 group on ADHD instruction in the classroom. I also get my CI 4332 "midterm" tuesday and it's due a week later-that will end up being about 10-15 pages long, typed up. I have a behavior management project due at the beginning of November, and a test for that class before the project is due. I have a couple more projects due and another teaching session in November and then my goodness, finals! The end of the semester is so close!!!! Only 5-6 weeks left!

My room is currently being repainted and it's taking me forever...it's really frustrating. Hmmmm...honestly my life is so freakin boring. lol

It's been a while

Okay so I don't have anything as interesting as some of my friends on here, but a bit has happened in my life, I think. haha...

Okay so school is absolutely AMAZING! I LOVE my school and I LOVE my major!!!! It's so much fun to be able to learn how to teach kids who are "normal" and/or disabled or whatever. I can't wait to start teaching and see all the precious children I will be responsible for!!! This is a pretty hard major though...everyone thinks teaching is easy...it's not!!! It's hard enough for regular education teachers, it seems as though it's even harder for special education teachers! I dunno, but I love it!!!! And I have to say I have some awesome friends who are teachers and they are so helpful!!!! I LOVE THEM!!!! THEY'RE THE BEST!

Other matters...I still work at the same stupid store I've worked at now for 2 years. It bores me so much sometimes but oh well, it's a job and I enjoy it.......on most occasions. Ummm...honestly I really don't have much to talk about other than I think Obama is stupid and doesn't belong in the office of US president. He also did NOTHING to deserve the nobel peace prize (in fact, him getting it has dumbed it down so much that I no longer respect it enough to capitalize the stupid thing! who cares about that prize anymore...we keep giving it to stupid people who know nothing and have done nothing). I guess the people of this nation really have become extremely stupid.

Ummmmmm......I really have no idea what to say anymore. I don't do anything fun anymore...I never go anywhere or anything like that. Wow...I'm such a boring person now. NOT!!!!! I'm so ridiculously hyper and energetic all the time I think maybe sometimes my friends think I'm crazy! But that's okay, I'd rather be hyper and stuff than dull and boring. =)

Things

So lots of things have happened lately. For one I've lost my crush on a certain boy in the ward. I have decided I will most likely NEVER go to cowboys again...and if I do go for like, more bull riding I will not be dancing. School is going smoothly so far..my goal is for as many As as possible this semester. I really like my professors and I have made many new friends already. As well as kept up with old friends too.

I have found myself having to work very hard to not think about how much I want a relationship right now. But it's really getting to me. I mean, I haven't even had any experience at all with a relationship with a boy or anything...it sucks. I've never had a relationship and unfortunately, I'm starting to want one more than I ever have in my life. It's hard sometimes to see my friends with their relationships. I am happy for them of course and I don't ever get jealous or anything, but it's hard. I just want someone there who treats me so special and so amazingly. Even though I know that the Lord knows what He is doing, it's still somewhat depressing. So I'm having to work extremely hard to keep the "lonely" feelings away. I just sometimes feel lonely and it's the kind of lonely that even my best friends can't fill.

Ummmmmm.........I really don't know what else is going on in my life. It's really going quite smoothly even though honestly, I'm kinda having a really rough time right now. But that's usually how I am...I usually don't let people know I having a rough time and tend to just cover it up. But if given the chance, I would probably break down into tears.

Never Say Never

I love this song by The Fray called Never Say Never...it's on my profile, you should listen to it. I don't know what it is about this song, but I love it...I guess there's a part of me inside that relates to it.




There's some things we don't talk about
rather do withoutand
just hold the smile
falling in and out of love
ashamed and proud of
together all the while

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time and time again
younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Picture you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
I will be your guardian
when all is crumbling
steady your hand

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time, time and time again
younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

It's interesting to watch people forget about you. People you thought would always be there............